My Fucking Family *bows*

Can you lift me up? It feels so heavy now. Everything. So heavy that I don't think I can carry them anymore. I am just a simple girl who wants to have a simple life. SIMPLE LIFE. That is all I ask for. But why can't I have it? I've always been on the safe side of the world. I don't deal with complicated matters. I take all the responsibilty for my actions. I think wisely, or sometimes not. But, still. Safe, i do safe things. I don't enter relationship cause it will just make my life complicated, and I might get hurt and suffer from that shitty love. I just want Me to enjoy life. And yeah I do care about my brothers. I also want to help them out. But the thing is, damn it, my life is just wacked up right now. Last year, my parents separated cause my mum screwed some other guy. Yeah, fuck sake. She's over 50 y/o. I already knew that thing when I was still in college, but I didn't speak up cause I don't want to have a broken family. But all secrets are meant to be revealed. My dad found out about that affair and he kicked out my Mum out of our house and swear everyday he's gonna kill her once he sees her again. Our house had never been quiet since then. We almost heard all the bad things that our Dad can say to our Mum, even to us. He's hopeless. I wish he was never my Dad. He wants us to respect and pity him for what happened to our family. But how can we do that? His mouth is full of bullshit. He wants us to pay all the things he had done to us. What the fuck kind of father he is? We owe him nothing. Even respect. He created us. Why are we going to pay him? Bullshit. See? What a life I have. Everyday, you can hear him shouting outside, how "honorable" he was. He was a retired policeman. But I don't give a fuck. Pssh. Honorable? Fuck him. I don't see an honorable policeman inside our house. All I can see is an Asshole. Fucking Asshole. Oh did I ever mention he started fucking the Bitch on the neighborhood. And he's actually fucking watching porn DVD's at night and even in the afternoon. Fucking ASSHOLE. Now back to my Mum. She's staying somewhere, i don't know and I don't care. Actually I hate her. I just don't want to show it. She always send text messages to me to give her money cause she's sick and for her rent and stuff. And I'm like, why? Why are you pushing me to support you? I mean, she's my Mum, of course I'm gonna support her, but shit, like fuck. She's like making all these Drama! My god. I hate Drama. She pisses me off, everytime she's sending me text message. So what do I do? I ignore her, I give her the dough, but I dont want to talk to her. First, she did this. She messed up. She's the reason for this shit that's been happening to our family. Second, she has other daughters too not just me. My sisters. It's like all in my back. And I can't take that. I wanna do so many things in my life. I don't wanna be stucked supporting her. She did this shit. She's old enough to know how to be responsible for what she have done. And now, I'm sick. Like seriously ill. I have Pulmonary Tuberculosis, which will take 6 months to treat and I have ulcer. Damn right. Sickness. What am I gonna do now? I don't know.. My friends? Uhm, they don't know about this, about my sickness and what is actually happening in my family right now. I just can't say it. Shit. Bullshit. Everything is Bullshit. Ugh. This is my fucking life.